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Mike's avatar

Wishing you a peaceful Sunday. I admire your bravery and strength to converse with the sad-clouded conversation that surrounds your day to day. And I hope unexpected moments of beauty and serenity reveal themselves and comfort you and your family during this difficult time. Music and nature are always great healers to get hugs from too. Safe travels and stay strong out there 🩵

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Sasha Zucker's avatar

❤️

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Lin's avatar

Adelle, you’re a wonderfully talented writer and this piece captures so, so much. It’s hard to be proud of something so painful and so full of grief, but I do hope that there is some solace to be found by releasing this into the world. The way you’ve framed your experience resonates. It will resonate with others, too. Thank you for sharing it with us and I am so sorry you have to at all.

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Adelle Louise Barlow's avatar

Thank you ❤️ I was so nervous on the plane last night I started writing. Hoping it would distract me. I’m trying to write with as much honesty as I can muster because I know someone else out there is hurting too-maybe they’d feel less alone then?

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Lin's avatar

Totally. There always will be. The line is so thin between doing the thing, and doing it when you aren’t up to it but feel like you really should, because what if. I hope this stays cathartic for you and you’re able to take care of yourself within it. I often help at my own expense when running on fumes (I wanna dote, damn it), so I have a hard time not being like, “Oh hey, take care of yourself, too” with other helper types. Like you said, maybe someone else needs it, too.

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Robert Kovar's avatar

Adele, thank you for sharing this. I have no words, only love.

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Adelle Louise Barlow's avatar

❤️

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Jessica Read's avatar

Thanks for sharing. Once you step into the world of anticipatory grief, everything is different. It’s such a surreal space to inhabit. To be human and live with grief, and all the ways it shapes and changes you and knocks you about, it’s crazy. Being present is the only thing we truly have. 🩵

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Adelle Louise Barlow's avatar

So true Jessica. I’m really trying to be present and sit with whatever this experience gives me ❤️

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Shrimpy's avatar

Truly Powerful

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Adelle Louise Barlow's avatar

❤️

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